Because I
rewatched Mizumono and rewatching Mizumono when I’m awake is never a good idea.
This phrase makes sense, believe me.
I’m going to
focalize on the last scene, because even if it’s not enough, it’s already too
much.
But I want to
tell you how deeply convinced I am that if Hannibal had burst out in rage when
he smelled Freddie Lounds on Will things would have gone very differently.
Hannibal kept
inside the rage, the disappointment, the desperation...
And that’s
practically the first thing that you shouldn’t do when you love somebody. You
ask, you explain, you let out your doubts.
I understand,
because I’m like him. With the exception that I don’t kill everyone at the end,
I just run away and let things go.
If you think
about it, it’s what Hannibal does. He tries briefly at the beginning asking
Will to run away without a sacrifice; but he is subtle, he doesn’t explain, he
doesn’t allow Will to make his decision with all the information required.
When Hannibal
decides that Will is on Jack’s side, his decision is unquestionable because he
doesn’t allow Will to partecipate in his inside debate.
Leave out the
killer part, he is acting like a person in love who is afraid to ask, so he
prefers to just stick to what he believes. I’m like that, I understand.
It’s very stupid
and I know that, but you can’t help it if you’re like this.
Last scene and
what Hannibal does.
He lets Will know
that Abigail is alive.
That’s the most
important part of his punishment. Imagine what Will is thinking right now,
imagine the rapid way in which the first important thing comes to his mind.
This was the main
reason why I hated him, her death. Instead she is alive. What do I do now? Do I
want to go with them? Maybe.
So he says:
Like, why are you
still here? For me?
Yes, then, you're
still here for me.
For a moment he
looks at Hannibal searching for that feeling.
Is he in love
with me?
And
maybe for just a moment, when Hannibal touches him, he is ok with his own
feelings too and wants to go with him.
At least he wants to go.
Then he could have
had all the doubts he wanted, but he would have gone.
Then Hannibal cuts
him.
I think in his
contorted mind (because in my mind Will is like Hannibal, so he is not better
than him and he is not a righteous person, his mind is contorted) he is thinking that he deserves
this. Considering the person he decided to have a relationship with,
considering he has befriended Hannibal Lecter and played with him, he couldn’t
expect much more. That’s why you can see his acceptance.
He doesn’t beg, he doesn’t ask for mercy. He suffers and listens to what
Hannibal says.
I mean… His guts
are almost out and he is answering to Hannibal’s questions like he knows it’s
the last time he can listen to him. How can you describe such passion?
Hannibal is a
serial killer, he won, he is going away… Why does Will feel the need to keep
the conversation going?
Because the reason they’re in this situation is the
lack of things said and now Will knows it.
Hannibal makes a
list of all the things Will dared to let go for reasons he (and I) doesn’t
understand.
You’re not a man
of the law, you’re not righteous, you make that clear so many times with your
actions. Why are you so mad at me? For what I did to you? I can do worse. For
what I did to Abigail? Well, the time can reverse, see? I told you that the
teacup could come together.
He says THE
place, not A place, the place like it’s the only one that can exist.
And he is
right. A
bigail and Will need a world apart where to live, because Hannibal sees
them as his family, his equals, and he knows very well that there’s not a place
for people like them in this world. Hannibal doesn’t even want a place in it
now that he has them, but Will ruined everything.
Yes, I wanted to
surprise you and you wanted to suprise me, Will, but we have very different
ideas about surprises. I wanted to give you the place in this world, you wanted
to take away mine.
Will: Didn’t I?
Are you sure I didn’t
want it? Are you sure I don’t want it now?
He is bleeding to
death and still he is tring to explain. He knows that there’s nothing left to
fix now, and still he talks.
Will: No… No… Not
your life no.
I don’t want you
dead.
I sense an
attempt to give as much explanations as possible about the situation, like
Hannibal too is trying to explain to Will that he had no choice but what he just
did.
The tone he is
using it’s like he is saying “Ok, then my freedom, it’s the same. Your fault
anyway, I didn’t do all of this for nothing, did I? Don’t try to distract me.”
He is annoyed by
his own lack of reasons.
He really has
overreacted and it’s not something he ever does.
Look at what
happened, Hannibal. You don’t seem to be able to kill and trasform me like you
do with your works of art. I’m not your design, I’m something else. You’re
acting like you don’t give a fuck about anything else but this and this is a big
change.
I know I made a
mess. I know.
But it’s your
fault.
Hannibal: Will you forgive
me?
And he does the
only thing he knows it’s worst than anything else for Will.
There was nothing
else he could do to express his pain rather than kill the only person who
connected them. The one Hannibal and Will both cared about.
I’m going to do
this horrible thing so you know that I’m myself, you didn’t change anything in
me, I’m still what I was and you better know what I’m capable of.
Again. It’s the
person in love who shows to the other he can go on without them.
I’m like this.
You disappoint
me, you leave me… I start living my life to the fullest, doing more things than
I did when I was with you, showing you that with you I was weak, without you I’m
stronger and you didn’t do anything to make me better, I’m better if I’m
without you.
Again, I’m not
saying it’s a good way to react, but...
That’s also the
only way Hannibal had to make Will beg. And Will begs.
When Hannibal goes
away, when he is at Bedelia’s, when he is on the plane, he has this expression
that seems to say “I’m still not very aware of what I did”
The expression
that goes perfectly with the one in Primavera, after Will’s alleged
forgiveness.
Did it really happen?
